I was listening to my favourite playlist. And this song which has always been in the playlist struck me.
I was talking to Marie on gmail this morning about relationships, the ones between God and me, my mum and I and of course, Anthony and mine.
And i realise that I haven't been praying enough. Maybe all I should do is to sit there and listen to Him. Then there will be a way out for everything.

When I am down and, oh my soul, so weary;
When troubles come and my heart burdened be;
Then, I am still and wait here in the silence,
Until you come and sit awhile with me.

I am in a really bad mood.
Really really bad.

1. I still 7 more working days.
2. I have my project to finish.
3. I can't go to the airport tonight.
4. I miss him yet I know I can't see him till God-knows-when.
5. The cause of 3 and 4 is my mum.

5 good reasons for a very very blue Monday.
3/5 is because of my mum. Argh.

Decided to make a short blog entry after Sheila commented that my blog has been dead for so long.

So far all of you guys out there who has been in constant contact with me, yes, I am fine. Doing well actually, but not too well in my internship. I dread having the thought of waking up early and coming all the way to Buona Vista, to sit in front of my computer and do research.

But well, I’m in the last one and a half weeks of my internship and after I deliver my report, which is not done at all, I’ll be done with working for at least the next year.

Anyway, this entry is not suppose to whine about my work. it’s more to comment about the reflection on today’s Gospel.

In today’s Gospel, Jesus healed a leper with the touch of his hand. It showed how important the sense of touch is. I saw a reflection question that says “who are the lepers in your life? The people who need your healing touch but who repulse you?” This question made me think a long time about my personal actions and thoughts I develop when I meet people and build my first impression of them.

Who are we to judge?
Who are we to say that the person looks arrogant, or proud, or boastful?
Who are we to think that the person is ‘inferior’ to us?

Maybe these people are the ones that we should be reaching out to the most, the people who need our touch, our love and our concern. The reflection mentioned that the primary symptom is that they are difficult to love because they never try hard enough to change. But what if we are the ones not trying hard enough to change them, or maybe we are not dealing with the situation in the right way. Maybe we are trying to change them so that they can become who we like, but not who they are.

At the very end of the day, Jesus wants us to be messengers of His love to them. And we need to be the ones who reach out to these people for him. We have to put ourselves on the line to always forgive and forget the things that the person has done to harm and hurt us, but forgive like how Jesus would want us to forgive.

I’m not reflecting about individual people I need to administer forgiveness unto. It’s just a general reflection. A reflection that I have not had for a long time.

I'm proud of myself. I did what I thought I didn't have the courage to do.
Maybe it wasn't meant to be anyway.
=)

I LOVE myself. =)

"She's Out Of My Life"

She's out of my life
She's out of my life
And I don't know whether to laugh or cry
I don't know whether to live or die
And it cuts like a knife
She's out of my life

It's out of my hands
It's out of my hands
To think for two years she was here
And I took her for granted I was so cavalier
Now the way that It stands
She's out of my hands

So I've learned that love's Not Possession
And I've learned that love won't wait
Now I've learned that love needs expression
But I learned too late

She's out of my life
She's out of my life
Damned Indecision and cursed pride
Kept my love for her locked deep Inside
And it cuts like a knife
She's out of my life

Am into this song now.
Stressed from exams. Stressed. Stressed!
5 more days!!!

10 more days... just 10... 

Today has been a bad day for me. 

stressed from studying.